Trip of Texas (Denton)

So ok, I've been to only 2 places of my possible 5. . . more likely 4 of my grand Texas circle. (By the way I have no idea what I intend to say this post). A&M was a blast, and I never managed to say hi to Kristin, I'm in a habit of blaming others as of recent, but this one definitely falls on me. I then got to Denton later than I should have but they stayed up awhile afterwards so I didn't feel so bad. Liz and Marcos are a cute couple, although she asplodes on him fairly regularly and he forgets a lot of what she says, which is a lot of her asploding. If any relationship is like my parents it would be their's without the snugglyness. I also realize I'm a freak, pda doesn't bother me in the least, it actually makes me smile. I just don't like fighting, especially on my behalf. I also find it absolutely hilarious when Liz cusses, because she has the softest sweetest voice ever, and its just funny to hear her say things like stop being such a bleep [sensored for language beyond my use]. Any how I'm having debates in my head about how to respond to some stimuli [using the science words], and excited about other events and sort of sad, that I want to leave one friend to see another. I'm also terrified of seeing Burks, I really don't want her to think I'm just fucking around and not getting work done, or that i emailed a professor without telling her, which the first time I did without thinking not realizing much would come of it, but then the 2nd time I realized I had messed up and purposely hid it from her, so now I'm definitely guilty. I want to just get into grad school.
Speaking of which I think Diedre last night told me she would be fine with never seeing me again. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, but after she was so offended by the hospital comment, I thought maybe she'ld say something, but why should I expect anything different. I've basically given up on honesty. . . just now realized that I"m hiding from Matt when I actually get into town so I can spend time with Arielle without him feeling bad. I'm hiding from Burks my every move, and when I'm not talking to Diedre, I really seem to my thoughts on her are a mess and always will be, because she'll never have enough maturity to deal with anything. Or if she ever does she'll never go back to fix old mistakes, I'm fairly confident about that.
I hate society and its rules, most of them suck and are pointless, most people will agree with me, when I mention it, but I guess thats just a part of society to, pretend to dislike it, but help enforce it. The few people I think that really do agree with me, are so brainwashed by it they wouldn't pretend to do anything anyways. . . I guess that includes me.
More thoughts. Ok so, that last set of code was overly difficult and blogspot didn't like that link, and so thats why its underlined, I got it to work, and don't care to try and complicate that code and have it try rearranging what I told it again. Stupid computers thinking they are smarter than me.
Ok well I think thats it for this post I need to get reading done.
So for quotes I'll do a happy and sad mostly cuz I want my sad quote, but don't want to end on a sad note
"Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when" Linkin Park

"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter " Linkin Park

When people think the world of you, be careful with them.
          -- Margaret Cho, Margaret Cho Blog, 09-26-05

Even with the best of maps and instruments, we can never fully chart our journeys.

            -- Gail Pool
For all their strength, men were sometimes like little children.
          -- Lawana Blackwell, The Dowry of Miss Lydia Clark, 19
I love quotations because it is a joy to find thoughts one might have, beautifully 
 expressed with much authority by someone recognized wiser than oneself.
          -- Marlene Dietrich
Of course the game is rigged. Don't let that stop you--if you don't play, you can't win.
          -- Robert Heinlein
Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious.
          -- Brendan Gil