dark side

whoah to posts in a day, somethings on my mind
Ok heads up this was intended for the other blog so no sense guaranteed or even pretended
I'm conflicted, tearing myself to pieces, this will probably be shortI don't know whether or not I want this blog(the other one) to be me, or just a flood of where my thoughts go, just to keep me sane.
I'm angry I'm pissed off, and maybe if this is my lie, than my life will be ok.
Or maybe my lifes just useless and its time to turn around and take this one.
I see the world from 1000 perspectives, and none of them seem happy now, but the current one that seemed so happy is losing faith and maybe my personality won't stay with the incumbent. Maybe it should be a more Oriam like personality, or maybe I should just play up Alexanders, those two seem to be duking it out lately. Alexanders pretending to be Kelvin on the phone Diedre, and a sadistic dying me on IM to Charlotte, a giving up me with Chris, the old me with Kevin and Robert, and Oriam gaining ground most notably on here. Kelvin never gives up, but he won't push them out of the way either if hes not accepted when he puts his arms out, and Swaedon, well Swaedon has no need right now, his mindset is more just giving Oriam fuel for now, but theres to much passion and anger for him to pretend to have control in this situation.
I guess Ill give this one to my other blog, so my blogs are swapped for the day. characters here and quotes in the other one, but I see no reason not too. Also the title is a link to the other blog,

Ok world live well, be happy, Tikun Olam, lots of Tikun Olam, and finally leave me some comments so I know . . . so I have an idea, beyond this counter or i'll just track down your computer IP's :-p

I'm better at most things than most people give me credit for except for the things people think I"m good at, its the great irony of my life.

Ohh and last thing my bosses kids one in hs (sophmore) and one in Jr. High both scored higher in math than I did on the real SAT, and I had the high math score 750 anyone?