work & diedre

soo my summer has been consumed with these two objects and one of them is over 1000 miles away and then some (a lot of some). I;m not sure what to put here I kind of bottomed out last night . It's such a weird feeling now like I was so pissed off and angry . . . for a lot of reasons. Heh the counselors all said I would blow up like a volcano, but I still think that was less than most peoples pissed off, but maybe one day I'll turn into the shooter who knows. Either way back to the point, I was angry and the thing that tipped it off was this dumb bumper sticker Diedre sent me that hurts a lot for a lot of reasons some just because of what it implies, a lot is just how it was said. A lot is just things I think are retarded and kind of showed me how not eye to eye me and Diedre may be seeing things, and some of it is just the fact that she would bother to find a bumper sticker to say it rather than just saying it to me or even type it to me.
More of me feeling weird like everything seems to be an upper now, every song, just the weather its almost revitalizing (yay I sound like a shampoo comercial),while before everything was bringing me down, but its not that I feel any better cuz I definatly still feel shittier, but I'm getting back to where I was. Like I thought that when things get that shitty everything just seems awful and you just get stuck in a bad mood, but its like i hit and bounced off. I haven't tried to go to sleep yet so no idea if it will be easier or not, I assume it will be purely because I'm just so tired.
ok so for quotes:
I got a giggle and I so love happy giggles so. . .
"I'll be happy as long as you are"

" An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures"


"And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever"

2 songs that for some odd reason made me feel better on the way home today. Well best of nights to all and I'll be ok, I think one way or another, I always have been so far.