summer 07

So I had a dream I remember its weird cuz I haven't remembered a dream in a long time
ohhhh and if you haven't realized this post is long cuz I haven't been on for awhile.
so my dream
I'm going to the movies with Diedre at the Cinemark 18 where I used to work.
And all of a sudden I notice Azima sitting in the front of a circle around . . . I notice Amanda playing her guitar and then I notice Sarah and Ansa maybe Phoebe also in the circle and realize I forgot I said I'ld listen so me and Diedre and maybe Robert and Kevin go and sit down and I give her a hug afterwards, and then I woke up actually I think I had another dream where I clocked in at work which now that I think about that is kind of creepy cuz I did clock in at work for the first time today cuz it was finally working.

I'm over worked underpaid I'm now like the 2nd lowest paid lifeguard only the new guard who's his first year every working is probably getting paid less than me only cuz he should be getting starting pay, but the 2 people who started their first year ever lifeguarding last year both got raises I didn't but they stayed during the winter. Another guy who was also his first year ever last year also got a raise over me who didn't work the winter either.

Ok so I've been a lifeguard for 4 years worked for Sweet water pools before them I'm older than them except for Chally and the manager who both understandably get more than I do.
I've been trained cpr since 3rd grade and probably been trained once for every year I've been alive between scouts lifeguarding babysitting and just for fun. I've had a job working as lifeguard for $8.50 an hour. I show up all the time on time never try to pull anything and its just really frustrating.

Ahhh I have to go back to work in 10 minutes

Diedre's sounding like she's gonna break up with me, but wants me to ask her to marry me and its like what the hell its hard enough to get up the courage and make comment to my parents and her parents and then I'm not even sure shes gonna stay with me.

I mean I do love her and I do plan to ask her to marry me and none of this should really be in a blog, just like I have a really hard time being like hey mom so I really love Diedre what would you think if I got engaged to her, with out planning to marry her till after we graduate

amandas probably right that theres no point of getting engaged until you plan to get married, but ahh its so fing frustrating
and now diedres caling so I'm gonna end this for now 6:08