left behind

"Leaving parts of your old life behind, hurts more than I remember" JD from scrubs
I accidentally put something on facebook that I don't remember because I just got a flood of emails from people I haven't talked to in almost a decade to Dr. Burks trying to help, give advice, and actually being nice.
I had a great poetic line dismorning, I wish I could remember it. It started with "It still hurts to wake up" and then something about not being over her.
Ehh Diedre's probably tired about hearing about it, but well if she's reading this thats her own fault.
Today I accomplished nothing. . . again, I'm still a failure, but I'm ok with that. I'm debating on visting old friends, going to the peace corps (kind of surprised of diedre's lack of caring if I went to the military, but whatever), or I don't know.
Just trying to fix things, and its not working. heh my conversation with myself I'ld post but it doesn't really fit into this blog (It was on aim). I talked to Jessie today, that was depressing, demoralizing, but shes happy and doing well. It kind of seems like my head has this impossible idea, that is actually right.

"My life is an open book" and still is if anyone asks . . . Scott
"I'm here to help" for any one that lets me know. . . . . Scott
"I'm sorry" I don't bring much to the table. . . . . . .. . . . Scott
"I am just a dream" . . . .see if you can figure it out . . . Scott