depressed >>

blehh so now I"m getting something done daily, not the right goals not in the right order, not even my list to nail down an order, but I"m getting stuff done, so thats improvement. On top of that I'm feeling better I call that progress, the scary part that progress is also lined with an increase number of suicidal thoughts, realizations I am now defined by loser (with a few extra friends), bascially I'm showing more signs of depression now. . . so I've improved to the point of psychological disorder, what does that say I was at.
On top of that, my parents are tired of me being depressed, I had 1.5 weeks to be depressed after that they got irritated with me, why I'm not sleeping in my rooms, why I leave my stuff in a pile, why I don't answer the house phone. . . fast enough, etc.
Although when they make mistakes and need help they still keep calling on me, to go shopping when they call in sick so can't walk into the store, or when they need me to take David to school, or whatever else.
My morning:
woke up 8:15 wanted more sleep decided I'ld settle for 15 min mom decided we had to go shopping now and there was no time to sleep in, so I showered did everything, got back and she was sudoking till I fell asleep I woke up she was asleep, said her name decided to use as excuse to get more sleep woke up yelled her name a bunch was like wow and went back to sleep, woke up again yelled at her until she got up. We left in a hurry, was planning to head into this party store with me but 2 feet from a parking spot she said let me out, so I let her out and waited for her, since Ithought thats why I dropped her off. I got chewed out lots of yelling, in the end I was getting yelled at because she was calling herself stupid, and I got blamed for her spending 65 bucks. Then I got back
Went to use my GPS to meet a friend i learned lives near me, and it won't turn on , . . 2nd time I need it since I got it, I've had it 2 months, I replugged it in. . . it won't turn on. Something is having fun screwing with me. Had some fun with Azima, got a talk about just doing what I want to do, and made her feel better about still being an undergrad.

Then talked to Liz and realize she gets more excited about her boy every day then I think Diedre in 5 years ever did about me, its just sort of depressing. and sort of reminds me of a puppy, but thats beside the point. I also got all political (military) on her today. She's really good at fixing my head.

So Chris does this >.> thing which I always sort of thought looks likes a girls top half with a mole. (or really high belly button) I can't take that as a face after the first time noticing it. Char on the other hand uses >>, which I joked looked like a thin and perky top, she then some how had me blushing and taking cover under my blanket so as not to blush in front of family, then I realized it probably looked like I was doing other stuff under my blanket with my laptop. So had to try and find a balance of shielding my face but not under blanket.
OK so now I just need quotes.
"My professor just wrote parallel on the bored, but he wrote pararrel. Guess what nationality he is?"
"I'm skinny and perky >>" Char
"You can please all of the people some of the time, you can please some of the people all of the time, but you can't please all of the people all of the time" Char quoting someone
"America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves. "
Abraham Lincoln
Hold on with a bulldog grip, and chew and choke as much as possible.
Abraham Lincoln