celebration

Today started off feeling like one of those down-trodden sad gloomy days. By the end of school I felt the same way yet when I looked over the day nothing had gone wrong, it had been a wonderful day, yet didn't feel that way. For some reason going to Dave and Busters and playing video games just didn't seem fun, which is kind of weird since I love that stuff. Anyhow when we went it was awesome, I had fun, chaperoned a little, but they were good. I came home and they were routy again but hey there 10 I started worrying one of them would nail me with the nerf giant darts they were shooting over my head, but none hit.
In band today we had a sub and basically a free day. I used to play a card game called Magic the Gathering all the time its fun, but kind of old. Anyhow the guys a played with last year convinced me to play since I never took my deck out of my backpack. I really would have rather just talked with other friends, but I ended up just deciding to play, and spent half the time trying to watch the drum core video and the other half wishing I was talking to people. Thats so incredibly weird me wanting to talk to people. . . even weirder is I'ld rather be doing that then playing a strategy game. . . *shiver*
BUT I have seriously got to get over this shy, I already screwed up I'm not going to any more thing. . .its ridiculous if I keep this up much longer I'm going to end up losing friends that shouldn't be lost. Over mistakes I shouldn't have made, and have had plenty of chances to fix. So hopefully I get over it.
My smile was somthing at Dave and Busters.
My thought was hmm. . . not sure my thought was. . . somthing about Valentines Day. . .I'm not really sure which one was on my mind the most. I kind of worry when I say this people will take wrong though, so don't take it for any more than it is. . .o yea and since I've said that double meaning things I've pretty much stuck to single meanings.
A little though on that Valentines thing umm. . .I really wanted to get somthing for somebody, this Valentines Day, now normally one someone says that they might means flowers for a special somebody no but I literally mean somebody, anybody. . .I seriously contemplated getting flowers for a few people, but decided it would probably be taken the wrong way, and do things that shouldn't be done. I'm not really sure why I really want to, but its my last highschool Valentines Day, and I'll leave the topic here for now.

O and last night I got 10 hours of sleep it was amazing.

I know no one cares, but my lifes an open book it didn't use to be I used to keep locked in a safe with chains binding it, locks, and steel doors, the problem was I left the locks unlocked, the chains were broken, and the steel door was never shut, but no one cared to get near it. Now I"ve changed and I've let my life open to all who want to know, but still no one asks. No one cares, but if anyone does I'm willing to expand on anything or answer any questions about anything whether it be religious, personal, homework, or whatever else. So I'm here saying use me take advantage of me,
Now have fun this weekend most if not all of you deserve it, and umm. . .and seriously I love being asked questions
Alright so have fun this weekend, stay safe, and for those who can enjoy Valentines Day