Happier year

Happy New Year, so I figured I'ld do this blog thing again. Down sides instead of playing games with friends I talked to "annoyed" and "sad" and then "sad" became annoyed. But actually it was fun, although after 11 it became kind of boring, we went back to watching tv. which really became me watching tv because she fell asleep. But any how the relationship doesn't feel so dead any more, which makes me feel much happier. I'm not sure why or how, but she warmed up to me again, and it was actually before last night, but yeah. So hoping for a happier year, I guess thats my resolution to be happier this year. Tough to measure, and something that isn't really entirely my control, but I guess its a worthy resolution. Finally insight into what I realized are qualities I need? not sure the best way to word that. Anyhow it comes down to security, I don't really need someone supportive, or someone talented, or whatever else, although pretty helps, because I love telling girls their gorgeous, but have that issuing with being a miserable liar. And yes i just said I want a pretty girl not because of wanting to look at her, but because it makes her easier to compliment. But back to security when I don't have it, it puts me through my own private hell, so with security I guess thats honesty and stability. Ironically as I say this both girls I have dated seriously have been kind of lacking in these, and not so much that they outright lie. . . although that might be the case, but what they tell me isn't what i should do or follow. That might actually be a general girl thing, and not something I'm gonna leave Paola for, at least not unless it gets much worse, but that is what makes the difference between happy Scott and roller coaster Scott. OK so now after a vaguely short blog and a whatever tone you would call that some quotes for the new year. Ok so my hotmail account sucks, and is locked up again. so just some quotes i like "If your going through hell keep going" Winston Churchill "Not all who wander are lost" "just think" "I am demanding that death taking a short hiatus so I may recover, it can even just be a hiatus from those i know." Well for a better year at the end of the world TIKUN OLAM (points to any one who can tell me what that means)