Thank the lord 2010 is over, my year of hell. And Oh Fuck its January. . . where it all started, January 4th to be exact, then the 14th, then the 25th (I think), then the 29th (or was it the 28th). Then came February, I'm not sure I can deal with another winter, its not really my season. I don't like cold, my luck is at its worst, and while I don't like to believe in luck but for some reason or another I do my worst in the winters.
The last one cost me a fiance' a future and a paycheck, but thats ok because I'ld do it again my whole January pretty much the same. As much as a pushover as I seem, I can be stubborn when I've made up my mind, and about all those things I lost . . . I did. Ironically there are few other things I have made my mind up about, and most of those I'm not sure I'm confident in any more.
One of the few things I am confident in, is my family and friends are more important to me than anything, and while I pretty much doubt everything else, this one thought has been reinforced beyond what I'm about to give you a metaphor for.
Today was one of those days I was really afraid to let my friends go home, where you want to beg them to stay for just another minute, but you know you shouldn't. To be honest I kind of did, but made it sound like a joke, but it had to be they couldn't really stay.
Anyhow I guess my new years resolution is: To have a better year than last year
At this point I just want a success that can bring happiness. Not much else matters. So here's a big fuck you to the world. and after a deep breath, I begin my work tonight "the same thing we do every night pinky, try to take", , , I mean try to fix this world TIKUN OLAM, its what I live for. Pinky: "Gee, Brain, what do you want to do tonight?"
The Brain: "The same thing we do every night, Pinky—try to take over the world!"
If you walk away, I'll walk away
First tell me which road you will take
I don't want to risk our paths crossing some day
So you walk that way, I'll walk this way Bright Eyes
The only thing worse than a man you can't control is a man you can.
-- Margo Kaufman
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye.
-- Miss Piggy
If you want to tell people the truth, make them laugh, otherwise they'll kill you.
-- Oscar Wilde
Appetite, with an opinion of attaining, is called hope; the same, without such opinion, despair.
-- Thomas Hobbes
Artists who seek perfection in everything are those who cannot attain it in anything.
-- Eugene Delacroix
I am more and more convinced that our happiness or unhappiness depends more on the way we meet the events of life than on the nature of those events themselves.
-- Alexander Humboldt
Don't let your sorrow come higher than your knees.
-- Swedish Proverb
Even the best of friends need time apart.
-- Mark Heath, Spot the Frog, 09-09-05
I began to have an idea of my life, not as the slow shaping of achievement to fit my preconceived purposes, but as the gradual discovery and growth of a purpose which I did not know.
-- Joanna Field
You've got to make a conscious choice every day to shed the old - whatever 'the old' means for you.
-- Sarah Ban Breathnach
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