almost

So this post was almost really happy, There were several happy posts I almost had but never really cared enough to post and several sad posts I assumed no on wanted to hear, or rather read. Then for 2 days I was happy . . . I mean like my anger for whatever reason was gone, not just like immediate distraction kept me from thinking about it. . .but like I could look at my boss and just not care, like I could think of Diedre and just smile (without pretending), i could think about my future and think everything is going to be ok. I was back to being happy. But I guess I traded that away a long time ago, I'm confident now. . .no one may believe me when I say that but I am. I still don't like forcing people to my way, or to make meaningless decisions, both are things I can do, but do rarely which creates the image that I'm not confident.

Anyhow I guess i felt behind in blogposts so thats what you get. me trying hard not to be depressing so just give slight weird/saddish post with no real purpose.

PS. (well this isn't really a post script but) Diedre isn't the reason i crashed . . . and sorry Kathryn for mentioning Diedre. . . I know thats a crime.

Depressing blah about my thoughts goes here ___________
now for quotes
Television is the first truly democratic culture - the first culture available to everybody and entirely governed by what the people want. The most terrifying thing is what people do want.
-- Clive Barnes

I got a brand new attitude
And i'm gonna wear it tonight
I wanna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight
Pink
So so what?
I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight
Pink
You weren't fair
You never were
You want it all
But thats not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren't there
You let me fall
Pink
It is confidence in our bodies, minds and spirits that allows us to keep looking for new adventures, new directions to grow in, and new lessons to learn - which is what life is all about.
-- Oprah Winfrey, Oprah Magazine, May 2004

Happiness lies in the joy of achievement and the thrill of creative effort.
-- Franklin D. Roosevelt

It's not the will to win that matters...everyone has that. It's the will to prepare to win that matters.
-- Paul "Bear" Bryant, I Ain't Never Been Nothing but a Winner
"I don't always believe every quote i post"
Scott
Give a man a fish, and he'll eat for a day. Give a fish a man, and he'll eat for weeks!
-- Takayuki Ikkaku, Arisa Hosaka and Toshihiro Kawabata, Animal Crossing: Wild World, 2005
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The more you read and observe about this Politics thing, you got to admit that each party is worse than the other. The one that's out always looks the best.
-- Will Rogers, Illiterate Digest (1924), "Breaking into the Writing Game"

Reason has always existed, but not always in a reasonable form.
-- Karl Marx

You can go a long way with a smile. You can go a lot farther with a smile and a gun.
-- Al Capone

The scientific theory I like best is that the rings of Saturn are composed entirely of lost airline luggage.
-- Mark Russell
The highest result of education is tolerance.
-- Helen Keller, 'Optimism,' 1903

Well done is better than well said.
-- Benjamin Franklin
Illegal aliens have always been a problem in the United States. Ask any Indian.
-- Robert Orben
As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain; and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality.
-- Albert Einstein, "Geometry and Experience", January 27, 1921