Yom limud(Day to learn)/False start

Yom means day for those of you keeping up on your hevbrew and limud (lee-mood) means to learn. Today I learned somthing. It's one of those things you learn that could change the way you live your life. Not because it was earthshaking, or loaded with emotion, nothing great and spectacular happenned, but its more of somthing you would see in a Mother Goose book, but this will never be in Mother Goose. Today I learned somthing. Today I learned that sometimes crossing that boundary, taking the risk, can get you in trouble and most likely will, as we all have none since kindergarten, but this trouble is not bad or horrible, but can sometimes fix things. Rather than getting threatened with time out or a d-hall which never really seemed as bad as failing someone's expectations (to me atleast) I was rewarded with a gift, I was given an answer.

Today I managed to do somthing on my own. No friends needed no help, see I can do it. It's just not always as pretty with out them, but maybe pretty isn't as good, maybe this is better. From now on till who knows when, I'm at a new beginning. . .I won't neccesarily be happy go lucky as I have plenty to keep me miserable such as the mere fact that out of the first 7 people I can think of 5 of them are miserable some are even to the point of depression. These aren't sad people either I wouldn't say any of them should be on depression medicine they all see so happy most the time, and their not miserable for no good reason they all have things, other than me since I'm among them, their all serious problems that I really don't have much advice to give and I'm not much of a comedian but thats the best role I've been able to play. I still can't believe the lady who died husband not only managed to smile, but to keep the other guests at the sit and shiver laughing. that really taught me a lesson that death can be gotten over and if he can still do that than my life at least at the moment is easy.

O and one last thing anyone else please say Happy Birthday David or somthing of that sort Thanks