lies

Today I lied, I'm sure most of you did too, but I don't lie much although it wasn't intentional in fact it was to the question what's up the I was asked now 3 times by the same person the first time I lied and said not much, the next I did't answer and the last I was honest.
Yesterday I lied but once again not on purpose although I probably would have had I realized when I told my mom I couldn't sleep and only got 3 hours if there was any reason and I said not really.
In the last month not counting today and yesterday I have probably lied to my mom on 3 days, a specific person once and another person twice.
Now the truth is an interesting thing, most everyone claims to strive for it but others aren't given much of an option. Some are cursed with the inability to lie or conciously lie with out having obvious warning signs little kids tend to smile and laugh, others like me turn red, some people merely scratch their nose, and others turn their head left.
I just yesterday realized that I may not have just decided to start being honest I may have picked it up from someone that being my little brother, now I never was an outright lyer who did things just to get on peoples nerves, and I've always been miserable at lying to get out of trouble and quickly gave up on it. But I wasn't always honest to the point of being mean, I remeber when my mom used to take us shopping she would stopped asking me if things looked good or what not because I always said they did while my brother was honest, and often he butted in with honest comments when they weren't wanted. The difference between me and him though is he chose to be honest while I was half way forced in that direction.
If truth is such a good, holy, and beneficial thing then why would people lie. Unless they believed that would benefit them more, and maybe the flat truth isn't always the most fun or the best way or maybe it is, then again it all depends on what you find important. Me I have the bad habit of shooting down all that I am, until it is beyond me to shoot it down anymore, so I of course do not find truth as my great standing champion, but more of a neutral entity, and is no more good than death or any more evil than love.
(claification I also believe death and love to be neutral, I'm not that much of a pessimist)