Stom -just joking

Hey everyone reading this have yall ever waited and waited for somthing and when you finally had your one chance you screwed it up, and then by chance of a dream got a second chance and did it again. If not don't do that, if you have you only get one life don't do it again. Or have you ever waited to do somthing you knew you would be forced to do, but when the time came you ended up talking yourself out of it for something that shouldn't even be considered as an excuse. Any how today was mediocre which is good for reasons mentioned yesterday. I wrote this really pathetic but honest email and I thought they recieved but it turned out they couldn't get to their email so I got to rewrite the only part of it with a purpose on IM and am still confused, but hopefully they'll give me a responce before reading the email, otherwise well it won't really make a difference, but makes it kind of weird. My mom has been planning all week to go to services even asked it I wanted to take my gf with me but I don't think to many people think of that as a great place to go. Then it gets back to the beginning of my post but if you know and can figure out the details congratulations if u want to double check ask or post a comment. Any how our practice turned into just a fun time to talk with my friends or well one of them was just a reallly good friend a few who were just friends and the other was the opportunity I almost missed and partially did but. . .
I screwed up again aarrghh I'll jump off a building stom. . . ok that was miserable but I didn't know what else to joke about stom doesn't translate to well to english but it comes out to just kidding or just joking. A weird memory but I'll only tell anyone the story or post it if someone comments and if someone beats you to it post a comment anyways. thanks for all those who take the time to read this and 1000 times more to those who post, and to those who seriously get somthing out of this such as learning a lesson or just a smile, my thanks goes out more than you can imagine thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you and thank you some more.