Blank. . . Valentine's Day

Yes Blank Valentines Day is the title of my blog today. . .if you want to know what it means ask, the rest of the post will be up later I"m tired exhausted should be sick, and have a fading but splitting headache. . . and why do I care so much about band. ..headache

quote of the day: "don't get discouraged"
I was about to explode my head was going to just crack I could feel it, but thank god he said it; thank god someone did.

What great advice as common sense that you never want to hear, when its said.

and so far the magic number is four
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ok so it's later I figured I'ld leave that up, but ok Blank because Monday I blanked on my calc test I've never done that today ok so here's my life
Friday not much got scared of cal test, and chem stuff worried me

Saturday umm. . . pretty much got wasted (not me the day), I subbed for someone at 1:30 and then talked to Rodrigo I didn't realize how long I'ld known him for. Then went to my shift at 10 and both times I was alone, it was boring they didn't get me to say the pizza was here, prolly had somthing to do with the door that doesn't go through the changing room, for some reason stayed locked even after I unlocked it a wierd thing to find out as I tried to reenter with pizza and was like oh not cool. and it might matter if people ever came to swim that late
then got to sleep at two
SUNDAY
I woke up 11 got a call from Diedre and it's like: D: are you doing anything S: nope D: ok I might be going to state with 2 pieces S:awesomness, then she has to go tell me the day is half way over. . . and I just woke up then lunch chess club cuz I"m a nerd. . . and right as I go to say ironic that the only time Matt comes to chess club is when I"m not here, he shows up, he slept in and so we ate lunch together, and then Susy chess club president was like yeah after this I'm playing Magic with some guy, and I was like what and she was like yeah Magic the Gathering I was amazed, I mean I thought I was pretty nerdy for the thought crossing my mind to bring them, and here someone had brought them and had extra decks not her the other dude, but I was like ahh then he must be like and started descrbing Crhis she got confused. So anyhow I had to play, I mean I am super nerd 5th best C in the state hehe. then I realized it was 9:30 and was like oh god how is it so late but that was right as we all decided good time to leave so I didn't have to be rude and then I got back sprinted up stairs and got online, for like 5 min to say night to Diedre, then it was . . .

Monday blanked on test and regular day. I did my lab stuffs yeah pretty boring



VALENTINE"S DAY:
midnight: wake up oh god I'm not late again check watch it's midnight I have been asleep an hour Bert's just walked in the door and is setting his alarm clock.
1:00 oh god I"m not late how. . . how is it only one
1:3? watch it be 6:30 now nope it's only 1:30ish
2:00 oh what time is it. . . slightly panicked but mostly tired. . . huh go back to sleep
2:20 what. . . oh god not even half an hour this time
2:?? still 2 . . . why can't I sleep
3:15 what time is it oh no . . . oh wait jeeze
3:?? I'm up
4:50 oh god oh god I'm gonna be late again get dressed run through the cold, feel really hungry, I can feel my eyes tearing, and it's just like all this to be late again so I get there, no janitors to open the doors run all the way around get in, clock in 3 min early which means actually 2 min late. go unlock stuff and it feels really odd, check watch oh dang it. . . it's 4:58 I"m an hour early ahh go log back out, and sit in unlocked pool for 40 min, cuz it's to cold to go back to my dorm. Clock in and get 15 min worth of extra pay cuz I lost that much last week. Hey this time the other guard shows up.

8:00: go to english hear that all my research blog stuff was wrong
for those who care to see it. . . prolly no one short of Kristin and maybe Char who already have the link its, researchinglgbt.blogsome.com, I mean it was like last semester where everything I said and did was nice try but no, where as no one else would say anything except now it was just no you did it wrong, oh and thats just advice to the class next issue Scott you did this wrong too, oh yeah thats advice to the class.
9:30 go work on lab, finish last bits, do corrections for the calculus test, I get the test back the Wed after corrections are due. I work on them the for 2 hours, go eat and realize I forgot to turn them in so run them to his office, so I go run do that cuz there do when my lab starts. Go to lab realize I left the printed part on my printer he lets me go back and do it, we have the longest lab so far. then I talk to Diedre 20 min go eat. . .
Go to jazz band that I've actually spent tons of time hammering out this dang thing practiced all but one piece like neglected everything not jazz band. briefly covered my lesson, and didn't work on one piece that we really havne't done much in classs. WEll now we work on that one piece first, wonderful oh the entire thing is like high g high a high b high a high b flat so I"m like dying over here, and he's like you're just guessing aren't you, well be tired and not liking an arguement I automatically was like yeah but I was practicing the other piece I was struggling with. and he was like you've had it for a week we have a lot of music. Not to mention when I got to class I was telling the older (40's or 50's) trumpet next to me that I had got that part better. well yeah so that pretty much annihalated me, then we got to work on the one I had spent forever on and yeah what happens I miss count the f******* rests yeah I was about to explode. So we do it again and what the f*** I screw it up my face has got to be redder than a turn up cuz i realize I look like a complete liar at the moment.
Didn't realize quite how upset I was . . .though when we finished and I put up my horn I was nearly in tears the moment I stepped into the closet. Oh the quote it came from the trumpet player right before I put up my horn, he was the only encouraging thing the entire time, other than maybe other people screwing up. IT;s just like don't get discouraged that is prolly the hardest I have ever worked for a band piece to not make a single difference, I gave it my all and it wasn't worth anything and I"m still the worst in the class.
Ok so I never knew I really cared for jazz band till I was about to cry but was like ok just hold it in till Dorm wait no can't do that cuz roomates there, so yeah just don't cry.

Alrighty so that was my Valentine's Day the first one I haven't been single the first time there has ever been tears in my eyes.

But remember if anything else


DONT GET DISCOURAGED